it's snowing... but i think the snow is going up, not down. weird.

i have a burning desire right now to do nothing. nothing. tonight i have to coach a basketball game and i'm excited for it but it i didn't leave this chair then the real world can't happen to me so i think doing nothing is the best option.

no possibility of losing the game
no accidents on the way home
no dirty dishes waiting
no dirty laundry
no cold air burning my lungs

but also, no chance to win, no chance to hear my favorite song on the radio, no chance to eat something homemade and yummy, no warm clothes, no playing in the snow.

i don't want to face all the bad but without facing the bad, i'll never feel the good. hmm is the trade off worth it? like that saying, it's better to have loved and lost to have never loved at all. is it really better? i don't know anymore...

i hate seeing people i care about hurt. expecially when it's my fault.

savanah banana

this is the only baby i'll probably ever have. love her

pretty bored today. i don't mind my job but my attention span is non existent. it's jumping all over the place. where it should be is seldom somewhere it stops. my mind is on dr.mario cuddling root beer hugs rice krispie treats road trips pringles toll booths. ha ha ha that makes me smile.

do you think we are supposed to stand by and watch our life happen or do you think we're really active participants? i mean how many times do people say life isn't fair. is it supposed to be fair? let's be honest, i don't like life sometimes. i bet you don't either. but since people aren't honest usually, just keep doing what you're doing. watch life pass. but then in the end get ready to be miserable. sure it's not always miserable there are times you'll laugh and be happy but in the back of your mind you'll be waiting for it to end because you know it won't last.

i want dr mario and cuddling today. worry about the rest later.

the things that run through my head aren't always healthy or normal but then again... i've never pretended to be either.

well, this weekend was full of ups and downs.

downs first...
my great aunt passed away after living 92 years. she was old but she was extremely healthy and she wouldn't give up. she caught pneumonia and it was just too much for her. my mom and her were VERY close and it'll be very hard on my mom, but we also understand she lived a good life and was suffering the last month of her life. it's for the better in the long run.

lost our basketball game... more to come on that in the ups

thursday (sort of the weekend) we were headed to the hospital to see my aunt and my dog ran away while i was waiting for my parents to come pick me up. a deer scared her in the woods and she came running home. it was funny but made me late. then we hit a deer while driving to the hospital and my mom's van is wrecked pretty bad.

ups...
i learned how to curl! yea, i know, i'm not 50 i shouldn't be curling yet but there were a lot of young people there... in face we almost lost to a team of 12 year olds. no lie. we had a ton of fun though and i only took one big fall. it was a great way to spend the weekend with chris, which i don't get to do very often

another up is part of the down. while spending 16 hours at the hospital after curling all day, i got to spend time with my sisters and parents. the 5 of us don't really do all that much together. there are times jenn and her family is around but hardly at the same time jamie is around and vice versa. we're all just very busy so it was nice to slow life down a bit and spend time together as a family. it meant a lot to my parents too, i know it did.

another monday isn't really a "weekend" last night my 5th grade girls basketball team had their first game. we lost 4-22 but that wasn't the point. we learned a lot and the girls had fun and they can't wait until their next game. i can't wait until our next practice so we can talk about the stuff that happened last night. there are a lot of naturally athletic kids in this group, i hope i can give them the tools to build their confidence.

my dad is closing on the sale of my grandpa's house today. my grandpa died a year ago in Aug and his house has been for sale since Feb with my dad footing the bill. he's been paying the mortgage, insurance, all the upkeep, utilities, etc on the house for over a year and finally it's sold. the stress that will lift off my parents shoulders is incredible. absolutely incredible.

that's my life in a nut shell these days.

This is my house!

This is the "office"

Living Room

The Den

The Kitchen

these pictures are before we were completely unpacked but you get the idea, right?

i finally have some updated pictures i wanna post and blogger hates me. please understand.

Ketchup

ok, here's a quick catch up since it's been MONTHS (quite literally) since I wrote last. we're all settled in the new house. savanah loves the big yard and the woods behind us. she comes home with more scratches then i've ever seen on one dog, but she keeps going back for more. having to jump around all the retaining walls has kept her busy as well so she's been much calmer when she's inside. that's not to say she stays that way, whenever guests arrive, whether she's seen them a million times or for the first, she greets everyone with the same love and excitement.

chris is settled in with his new job. he loves his short commute. not sure if i mentioned this or not but he got a "new" truck. well a different truck awhile ago. it's big. it's a ford. and that's about all i know. i will have to take a picture or two to post. it's cute but i would have perferred an suv. he's loving being close to his parents/grandparents for hunting purposes. he got a small doe with his bow. it's earn a buck, so he had to get a dow to get a buck. i don't care for venision unless it's hot sticks or sausage so i'm fine with it if he doesn't get another. his dad and him spend lots of time "fixing" things that probably dont' need to be fixed. his mom has turned into our personal gardener and i'm loving that part of them being so close!

my life is crazy right now. i joined the rio athletic booster club. i'm the treasurer. i love it. i love crunching numbers and making reports and being able to help out whenever i can. we were a part of the homecoming parade this year which was fun. i love to see how excited kids get over candy. it's just sugar but even kids know the fun sugar can bring! the rio football team just completed the best season in rio history. no lie. they were the first ever team to win a play off game. they were taken out the next round but that's not to undermine the amazing efforts those boys put in. off to college for most of them, next year will be a struggle again. however... i hope they are proud of themselves. i am coaching again! FINALLY!!!!! i've missed being a part of basketball while we lived in janesville. i'm coaching 4th and 5th grade girls. they challenge me each and every practice. sometimes i come home and i want to cry and other nights i come home beaming with pride. i love to see them when they finally get something i've been saying. you can see the light bulb pop on and they finally get it. its' the most amazing feeling as a coach.

other then that we're just busy. we LOVE being close to friends again. in fact we have 7 weddings next year! chris and i will be a part of most of them which is both good and bad. we're very excited to celebrate with our friends and family but gosh that's adding up quick. they are pretty spread out though so that's good. we don't have to take out second jobs, well not yet anyway. i'm still waiting to hear the good news that my little sister is getting married... i'm hoping it'll be soon!!!

a couple weeks ago i went on a field trip with my nephew ryan to the apple orchard and crane foundation. spending the day with him was great. it almost made me which i had kids!!! this weekend Alex, my 11 year old neice, Ryan my nephew who is 7 and Tanner my nephew that is 3 will all be spending the night! i can't wait... i love them. we always end up cooking something and making lots of messes. sunday night i'm sure i'll be busy cleaning house but that's ok. it's so worth it.

well i should get back to work... thanks for letting me remind myself how happy i am we're back. back in R-10.